86,400 Seconds In A Day.

Time waits for no one. Time is a very fickle thing, it's fragile, it slips away all too easily.
I am a procrastinator, I don't know what I want and when I want it, but there is one thing I do know... I want it now... The trouble with that is I don't know what 'IT' is.

I've wasted so much time on the wrong people. I've pushed the wrong people away. The ones that were going to be there when I needed them the most. I saw the best in the worst people and the worst in the best people.

I'm five months into my 'new 86400 second' journey and it has been a bumpy ride to say the least. It's been different. EVERYTHING, ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING has changed. EVERYTHING HAD to change. I'm not the same person I was that walked into 2016. I've given up on a lot of relationships, attitudes and ideals that I had in the past.
 

I've tried new things. More things have to change and they are about to. I fought against those changes for so long. Resisting them because they scared the living daylights out of me.



Anger became my defense mechanism when it was brought to my attention about this person and that person and this isn't working for you, let's try this avenue. Being stuck, stubborn and lost, I became even more stubborn and thought everyone was conspiring against me. Turns out, they were on my side and the ones I put my faith and trust in, didn't have my best interests at heart at all. Many lessons learned this year and many more to go. Many friendships to hold on to and many ships that need to set sail.