Sunday, 26 February 2017

Grieving Process, Good Grief, Bad Grief, Loss, Heartache, Grieving People Who Aren't Dead




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I don't know what is worse. Thinking the best of someone and then they let you down, you see them for who they really are, maybe with the rose coloured glasses on, you want to see them in the best possible light.
Rose colored glasses in a sea of pink feathers

You'll worry less about what people think about you when you realize how seldom they do.

 "How totally banal of you to ask what I really mean."

People will take what you say and do completely out of context. Does that reveal you are a bad person? No, it reveals their own securities because they haven't bothered to ask you how you are feeling, what you meant by a 'completely taken out of context' comment.

This week saw the demise of a 'so called friendship'. If I am honest with you, I should have seen it coming (those rose coloured glasses really have to go!!) and so do a lot of the people I used to call friends.

Expectations can lead to so much disappointment and can lead you on a destructive path of grief where I took a lot on board, took a lot to heart. I twisted myself back to front, upside down and inside out. The emotional turmoil was horrible and at the moment it's the calm before the storm. I am in a sense of solitude.
 
Things can rarely be understood when you're in the moment, it's only when you take a step back that you realize everything you were putting up with.
 
Regrettably, I wrote on this 'so called friends' wall about her cat who was lying down on a peculiar angle (I know I do this and I end up with a stiff neck the next day.) This is exactly what I said. WELL, the tirade of abuse I got will not be broadcast on here, I can assure you.

Now that I am out of that moment of not feeling friendly, now that she has been removed from my life, I can see more clearly. Being called 'Missy' all the time, snide, cutting remarks, her nitpicking, wanting to end the friendship by having a go at me, calling ME NEGATIVE, calling me or messaging me when the time was right... FOR HER. Everybody has the same 24/7 and yet it was her time that was more precious. I told her that she knows where she can shove her friendship. FriendSHIP....  That ship has SAILED.

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