Challenging The Mind, Challenging The Body, Challenging The Spirit. What Doesn't Kill You Makes You Stronger.

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger

When thinking about so many things that I want to do in life and looking back on what I have already done, what I set out to do and overcame, what I never thought I could, it was all in the mind.

We often worry about the worst case scenario. What if this happens? what if that happens?  Nine times out of ten, it doesn't happen.... So.... we've spent all of that time worrying... over nothing...
Time wasted and time that we can never get back and yet we talk ourselves into the 'what if's and the 'worst case scenario' over and over again. Why do we torture ourselves?  It's not a nice feeling.

I tended to want to stay in my comfort zone and the very thought of different things happening around me, frightened the Hell out of me. If someone left a place of employment I was in, I couldn't imagine them not being there. If things stay the same and familiar, I am in a comfort zone, getting TOO comfortable...

I look at life now, EVERYTHING has changed and some of those changes aren't so bad. At the time, I feared them... A LOT.

If it wasn't for making those changes, I wouldn't have done the things I have accomplished this year. Things change, because they are supposed to. Life would be boring if everything stayed the same.

People and situations change, just remember the ride goes on....
 

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger

Stand a little taller

Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone....

What doesn't kill you makes a fighter

Footsteps even lighter

Doesn't mean I'm over cos you're gone....

I am definitely a fighter and even tried my hand today at boxing. For someone that has balance issues, I was soooo proud. I managed a gym session and the boxing and even went back to the gym for a second burst of energy. Our only limit is that the mind tries to tell us 'we can't'. I CAN AND I WILL.

FEAR

I fear a lot. I have feared a lot and I have no doubt in my mind that I will continue to fear things through my whole life. My biggest fear is: 'What if I fail? What will others think of me? What will I think of me?

I am fearful of the fact that I don't know the answer to those questions and I won't know unless and until that happens.

Face Everything And Rise
Forger Everything And Run.

I have the above choices, but I choose the top one any day.

What does fear look like to you?

This is what it looks like to me.

This is what it looks like to feel fear and do it anyway. It was at this point, I had no idea whether I could rock climb, almost at the top and I barely had the strength to take another step, could I actually get to the top? what if I didn't? what if I failed? would I beat myself up? how would I feel afterwards if I decided to give up....

I kept going and didn't give up because I knew if I did, I would be sitting here typing on my blog but the story would have ended differently and I would be disappointed and be left wondering what could have been.... instead, I'm beaming with pride as to how far I've come.

And I Wonder Why, Why I'm Falling.

When we learn how to walk as a baby, we take one step and we stumble and fall, sometimes I was known to land on my butt, other times I would fall forward.

Fast forward 29 years for me (I took my stumbling steps at 2 and a half and officially was walking unaided at 3. I am now 32.

I have had a lot of help over the years and it has got me to where I am today.

Some moments will test you
Some moments will break you
Some moments will make you.

Fake it til you make it blah blah blah. Sometimes easier said than done.

I've stumbled and tumbled but I've got back up and tried again.

I believe the fear of falling is 'basiphobia' and that is probably because the 'basis' from where we stand may feel like it will go from underneath us. I often have and have had in the past, a fear of falling as my centre of gravity lets me down a lot.

Of late, I have stood tall and proud and am even walking around more confidently. It feels unusual to me and a little bit foreign....

BUT I LOVE THE NEW CONFIDENT ME. 

We All Want What We Don't Have And Aren't Grateful For What We Do Have

Some people are short

 Some are tall

Some are big
Some are small.                           

Some have curly hair





 


Some have straight hair





                 
 Some people would love to be tall and the tall people really want to be short because it plays havoc with their back.

We can't have everything. I'm happy with what I have and where I am at. For today and how far I have come is something to be happy about too.

I also know that it isn't the end for me and there is much more to experience in life, I just have to be willing to go out and find it.

Good people have set me on an adventure
Bad people have given me experiences.

I have plenty more adventures to go on and much more to experience.

Calling All Teachers, Education Assistants, Principals etc.

For anyone that is a teacher an education assistant or principal, even a young mum that loves reading books, I am in the process of writing my own books and would love some interest. If you would like to contact me via traceyh84@hotmail.com  as I don't know how to respond to messages on here, my books are going to aim at bullying and that every dinosaur is special (every child is special) and every child is different:

Some are tall
Some are short
Some are big boned
Some are skinny and boney.
Some can run
Some can't
Some eat meat
Some don't
Some eat insects etc etc etc. I am wanting to set up a gofundme page. If you have any comments please contact me at the above mentioned email

regards

Tracey Hicks

Some Mother's Certainly Do Ave'em.

It was in year 2 that I started impersonating Frank Spencer.  Away from all the nonsense of life, Frank could make everything seem that not all was lost, he could always make things better... or is that 'he could always make people believe that there is always someone worse off ?' He seemed to always get himself into some sticky situations.

I've had my fair share of ups and down in life as everyone tends to have. I've had struggles in trying to hold down a job. I can't say that the last two positions I've had have been great, they just haven't been to my liking and to my talents.

Back to year 2. It was dress up day for me and I was all of seven back in 1991. My uncle was very much into Some Mothers Do Ave'em and I quickly got onto getting the impersonation down pat. And down pat, I did.  When the school organized a dress up day, did I want to dress up as: Cinderella ?


Snow White ?














Little Red Riding Hood ?













No way !!! I hadn't perfected the voice, the smile, the lines for nothing... Sooo, I set off to school with my raincoat and beret (or my uncle's beret and raincoat more like).... AND I won.

Everyone has their fair share of trouble and 'I've had a lot of harassment lately'... But....

Every day, in every way, I'm getting better and better !!!

Paying The Price. Time For Change At Any Cost.

  



    


Money doesn't buy you happiness. If you haven't got happiness or your health, money doesn't mean a thing.

I have my health and am working on myself this year. Myself. The best thing I could ever invest in. The bill is looooong overdue.






 I am the only one that can be made 'accountable' for my happiness and well being. Full credit to me. When you're happy everything else falls into place. I have let a lot of people go over time and the people that stuck by me I will be forever 'indebted' to.

Some people were all about take, take, take (not my money) but playing with emotions. It was ME that was paying the price for how that made me feel.

I am slowly starting to grow and while I know there are still a lot of changes that need to be made, I know I will get there in the end if I 'spend' time on me and things that make me happy, around the people I want to be around and doing the things I want to do.
I am 'in charge' and owning that is something you can't put a price on.