I'm not the person I once was, sometimes for the better, other times for the worst. Do I wish I was more assertive? Hell yes !!!
Do I wish I could have stuck up for myself, stopped myself from being used, abused (I've been mentally abused over the years) and in high school (part of the reason I left) I was inappropriately touched, I've been lied to and taken for granted,too.
But you know what? I wouldn't have life any other way. No this isn't a woe is me and I won't invite you to a pity party.
I've changed over the years, as has the circle I have around me. And it will continue to change. I am not the same person I was back in high school. Guess what? None of us are. I'm not the same person I was a second ago, let alone a minute or hour ago.
Things need to change in my life and I am working hard to make those changes happen.
There is one thing for certain, while certain people have walked out of my life, I slammed those doors shut and I am SO GLAD I DID. When a door closed, I made sure that I didn't slam all those doors, because there are people who have knocked on the door and I've knocked on doors too. Some times thirteen and more years apart.
I am blessed to have people in my life. Some people will change over time, but there is a definite sense I am feeling now of reason, season and lifetime and that makes me happy.
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