Letting Go Of Creating Fear. Trusting In This Journey. My Journey.

          



I am still trying to grasp the idea of 'you get what you give'.

Many times I've been walked on, used, abused, taken for granted, talked about, lied to etc etc etc.

I can't hear the echo's of these voices anymore because the voices that are giving me encouragement, acceptance, support, help, understanding and guidance are the only voices I choose to hear.

While I still have a loooong way to go with where I need everything to go, I'm not in the same place, I'm not the same person and I'm not around the same people anymore.

I'm doing different things. This was something I projected so much fear towards, I tried to avoid it and voiced that change was something I didn't want. Every second of every day, everything is changing, I needed to change... desparately.

In the past, I thought negatively, SO I created negativity around me.
People around me were negative and this made me negative, it wasn't their fault, I just needed to move on and sooner than I did.

I imagine in years to come, my circle would have changed a million times over. For growth, it's not just something that should be done. It can be done, it will be done, it's necessary.

I can and I will rise above anything that is thrown at me.

I created a lot of fear, unnecessary towards joining the gym. 'What if I can't?' 'What if I'm not good at it'?. 'What if I don't fit in'?. 'What if I fall off a machine?'

I did fall off a machine, I have fallen off two machines and one in particular I fell off twice, but I got back on (AND THE BEST PART??? I didn't break any bones).

The fear I created...

WAS ALL IN THE MIND
WAS ALL IN THE MIND
WAS ALL IN THE MIND

Next week (Tuesday) marks five months in the gym. Would I have this any other way???

HELL NO !!!