Time Waste vs Time Waist.

Before

This photo was taken in 2009, I think this is a testament to how far I've come.

 During my new journey middle and bottom and one more photo to come.

These photos were taken in January and February of this year and I still have one more photo to come. I think these photos are a testament to how far I've come. I can honestly say

Sometimes the tick of the clock annoys me, sometimes every sound annoys me. Repetitive sounds irritate the 'you know what' out of me. It's the sounds that annoy me and they edge my anxiety even more closely, then the sounds of this busy head of mine start. While I do nothing, my mind does and it says a lot to me and about me. Time for me to look after ME.

Time has changed. Things have changed, I had to change. In order to grow and in order to know I had to.

Yes, as you know, I have been a lot bigger than what I am today and I don't know whether it's fortunate or unfortunate that I don't have a photo to show for it. I don't want to show that off anyway.

With how far I've come, I will send a photo soon.

When waiting for something to happen, I wasted a lot of time on the wrong people. I didn't expect anything in return or for them to do something for me, but I had to get out of that place thick and fast.

I am a procrastinator and often times ask myself
'will I won't I?'
'can I can't I?
'should I shouldn't I'?

I've put things on the back burner (through laziness but also through fear). Fear that things won't work out the way I want them to or fear that things will take too long. Things were put in the too hard basket. I was put in the too hard basket by others and by me. I can't expect others to give me a go as that is their choice, but I am giving myself a go and getting off my back and getting off my butt. Time to work on myself, no matter how selfish that might be to some people.