New Horizons, New Things To See And Do And An Even Bigger Bucket List.

In a way, my whole life, I have been self reflective. I have reflected on everything. Some things I have handled well and others, not so.

Often times, I have been told to live in the real world. I happen to think that the real world can be a dark, callous and heartless place to live in.

When I think about living in my own mind and not in the real world, well, that can be a brutal place to live as well.

Looking back, I am partly proud of the person I see when I look in the mirror and other times I see myself as a 'work in progress'.

Mirror on the wall
I'll always get up after I fall
And whether I have to run, walk or crawl,
I'll set my goals and achieve them all.

X Peace and Blessings everyone and above all else.....




Don't stop being you.

Dr Seuss,

“Today you are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You.”

This, that and all the rest of it.

It's been a difficult start to this year. Some of it, I have enjoyed and other parts of it, I have loathed. We are ninty two days into the new year and I know I have a lot more to achieve.

There may be a few potholes in the way, but I know I can do it, if I put my mind to it. Not only am I thinking more clearly, I am thinking about the whole picture and feeling more clear about what I want and what I don't want, even if I don't have a clear picture of how it is going to pan out. Maybe how it does pan out, will look totally different to the vision I currently have in my head. Some things are going to look scary to me and they may not end up being that way.

Loving water aerobics, loving the fact that some people have left my circle and feeling incredibly blessed for the ones still in my circle.

Maths

Sometimes, you have to accentuate the positives and eliminate the negatives, that's what gets results. Results have been very slow with me over the last fifteen months, but I am slowly getting to a happier me.

There are many reports that you need to do this, you need to do that, everything in moderation, this is good for your health, this is bad for your health.... BLAH BLAH BLAH. The list is endless.

Like some things being bad for us: Too much alcohol, cigarettes, chocolate and cake, some people can be bad for us, toxic even, some environments can be toxic too


(Ya got to spread joy up to the maximum)
(Bring gloom down to the minimum)
(Have faith or pandemonium's)
(Liable to walk upon the scene)

Ch-ch-ch-ch- Changes

The ship has sailed, the pity train has left, all cliché really. When love turns into hate. People and situations change. There was a time when what people did and how they said things, I would let things slip, I would bite my tongue.

I spoke about the pedestal and putting on that pedestal. If you put people up too high on that pedestal, chances are they will eventually fall (or I will take them down a peg), one of the two.

There was a time when people couldn't put a foot wrong with me and I gave them more chances than they deserved. Incoming: the more assertive me that is willing to step up and stand up for herself.

When looking at people and no matter what they did, they always made me happy. Now my eyes are wide open and I am choosing who I have around me, much more carefully now.

Fresh Perspective

I'm writing this as it's pelting down with rain, thundering and lightning. This can be scary in itself, and so can life. Life works in mysterious ways.




There was a time when people left my life, either they passed away, or they decided that my time in their life had finished, reason, season and lifetime.

I know I have brought this up a lot of late, but it is something I feel very passionate about and while I grieved the people that chose to walk out of my life, I had no control of them walking out and that was the thing that 'killed' me at the time.  Maybe I had a clue that my time with them was going to be limited.

I've been told many times to 'live in the real world'. I won't give you a 'pity party' here, living in the real world, as I am sure all of you will relate, can suck, can suck big time, people suck, things suck.

People change
Things go wrong
Just remember, the ride goes on.

I have no control of those that are now living their life separately to mine, but it's a grieving process.

Grief comes in many forms, I'm currently grieving my two grandparents that passed away (albeit ten years apart) but within two weeks of each other this month. That's one loss and the other loss is losing 'friends' or people masquerading as friends. People, who when you say or do the wrong thing at the first point, they decide enough is enough.... SO IF THEY AREN'T GIVING IT A SECOND THOUGHT, EITHER AM I.

Now My Heart Awakes To The Sound Of Silence

The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched - they must be felt with the heart. Helen Keller
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The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched - they must be felt with the heart. Helen Keller
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The best and most beautiful things can't be seen nor touched, they must be felt with the heart-Helen Keller.

There is a saying about your heart and who it beats for which is on the tip of my tongue but I can't quite get to it.

Going with my gut, going with my intuition, my own heart and sticking with the people that will actually listen to me. Rather than listen to everyone though, I am going with my own voice.

Sometimes there is nothing but silence, sometimes my mind is an absolute mess. I have my own voice, but I am going with my gut, going with what I want to make me happy. Making things go for ME AND MY WAY. I hope the people that read this that know me (yes I know there are people all over the world reading this, but the ones that know me), I hope they know that I have become secluded somewhat, some of it, I am partially to blame. I have become a bit of an introvert. Some things I don't say anymore, some things I don't do anymore, out of fear. If I stay in my own space, I can gather my own thoughts in my own 'quiet'. This stops me saying the wrong thing. I am more inclined to just be me now though and let the 'RIGHT' people love me for ME. The wrong people can...   go JUMP                                   

Not Everybody's Cup Of Tea... Not Everybody's Everything Really

 

 

 

 

 

Some people will rate you, some people will hate you. There is a lot of war in this world and a lot of HATRED, I believe that HATE is a very strong word.

 

I don't drink tea, don't drink beer, will have the occasionally glass of Bailey's and the occasional glass of wine, the occasional milky cocktail, I don't go for fizzy drinks either.

 

What am I learning in recent times? It's not a matter whether anyone likes me or not. I now have the strength to go into a room and question how many of those people I actually like. Others wouldn't give it a second thought, so why should I?