I've often had so many thoughts go right through my head at once. I'm liking a ticking time bomb. I have lost count of the amount of times I have panicked over something, only to realize the outcome I thought would arise, actually didn't.
I am exhausted to think that all of these thoughts can go through one person's head-MY HEAD. It's like a spinning wheel, spinning way out of control. Several voices going on at once. Sometimes I just wish it would stop, those voices aren't doing me any favours.
I can quite easily worry about the most stupid thing. I can be all too consumed by worry.
What about if I'm late?
What about if this crops up?
What about if this person says this?
What about if this happens?
What about if that happens?
If that happens, this is going to happen.
If THAT happens, then, that will happen
and if THAT HAPPENS, THIS WILL HAPPEN...
SWEATY PALMS, SHORT OF BREATH... STOP TRACEY... STOP !!!
Enter Mum: 'Tracey, what was the original thing you were worried about?
Me: 'I wouldn't have a clue, but now I'm worried about this'.
Anxiety is nasty. Do I want anxiety? Of course not. Do I wish it on my worst enemy. No WAY. If I knew of any other way, I'm sure I would go that way.
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